Alucard210

feeling down again. im so alone and no one realizes it. everyone I try and talk to bushes me off like im nothing. its starting to piss me off. im starting to hate going to work. before I never cared, but this job is going no where. its just a shitty company that doesn't give two shits about any of their employees. why take a fucking contract that you have to take people from others sites and not even pay then a decent wage for standing on a corner for 10 hours and get ignored or yelled at when they try and do their job. fucking dumb people.
my shitty excuses for something to keep me preoccupied is going no where. tried painting a headlight and Fuck up on it and now it looks like Shit. I sold my pistol to buy a helmet that's just gonna sit on my shelf till it rots.  
I fucking hate life and most of the people. what's wrong with me that know one wants anything to do with me? where did I fuck up? why didn't I say no...

Denmark:
[ ] People say you're loud and annoying.
[ ] You think you're God's gift to the world.
[ ] You're a leader.  
[ ] You think you are good looking.
[x] You're the oldest in your family.
[x] You're childish.
[ ] You're the center of attention.
[ ] You're very bossy.
[ ] You don't get along with others.
[x] You can be stubborn at times.
3

Norway
[ ] People say you're cranky.
[x] You're very quiet.
[ ] You always wear some type of accessory.
[x] When you speak, you tell things how they are.
[x] You have a sibling.
[x] Your hair sometimes curls, so it looks like you have Italy's curl.
[x] You don't like to show emotion.
[x] You get annoyed very easily.
[x] You believe in magic.
[x] You are extremely shy around strangers.
8

Sweden
[ ] You apparently look scary.
[x] You wear glasses.
[x] You like to listen more than talk.
[ ] You're very tall. / I want to be a short... ;_;
[x] You've very good at building/making things with your hands.
[x] You like debates.
[x] You have a hard time expressing your feelings.
[x] You have a playful personality.
[ ] You like someone who does not like you back.
[x] You're a bit of a rebel.
[ ] It's hard to understand you when you speak.
7

Finland
[ ] People mistake you for the opposite gender.
[x] You have a good sense of humor.
[x] You're a very sweet person.
[ ] You're always talking.
[x] You're short.
[x] You don't mind the cold.
[ ] You're not the best cook.
[ ] You would be the perfect wife/mother.
[x] You're honest.
[/] You act like an adult. //Sometimes..... XDD
5 1/2

Iceland
[ ] Even if you won't admit it, you love your family.
[x] You had/have a pet bird.
[x] You love licorice.
[x] You're very passionate about things.
[ ] You're the youngest
[ ] You want to be a grown up.
[x] You get embarrassed easily.
[ ] You are modest.
[ ] You have a short temper.
[ ] You don't like childish things.
4

i guess im norway XDDD

I don't understand why people think im so awesome.  if they had just a taste of what goes on in my mind. they would be discussed. they really would. I hate people and I hold my tongue back Soo much. if I started to talk what's on my mind. people would realized how horrible of a person I really am. im a horrible, perverted,  lonely asshole that doesn't deserve to walk among people.  
people think im happy in my life,  but they are far from the truth. im a 24 year old virgin who is going no where in life and will remain single till the day I die. no one wants to be with me, talk with me or even attempt to hang out with me. if I didn't put myself with people and almost force myself to hang with people.  no one would know I exist.  im a nobody that just needs to disappear. there isn't a day I regret having that surgery. I should of followed that sign and just let myself go.  no one would miss me anyway.

► Are you single? ➔ very much so
► Are you happy? ➔ kinda
► Are you bored? ➔ yes
► Are you sad? ➔ no
► Are you Italian? ➔ nope
► Are you German? ➔ nope
► Are you Asian? ➔ nope
► Are you angry? ➔ nope
► Are you Irish? ➔ nope
► Are your parents still married? ➔ nope

TEN FACTS
► Birth Place? ➔ Oregon
► Hair Color ➔ brown
► Hair Style? ➔ short
► Eye color? ➔ hazel
► Birthday? ➔ march 3rd
► Mood? ➔ Tired, empty and a little depressed.
► Gender? ➔ male
► Lefty or Righty? ➔ right
► Summer or Winter? ➔ both
► Morning or Afternoon? ➔ afternoon

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
► Are you in love? ➔ not really
► Do you believe in love at first sight? ➔ no
► Who ended your last relationship? ➔ me
► Have you ever been hurt? ➔ yes
► Have you ever broken someone's heart? ➔ im sure i did :/
► Are you friends with your ex? ➔ Yes
► Are you afraid of commitment? ➔ No.
► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ no
► Have you ever had a secret admirer? ➔ maybe, i dont know
► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ O.o?

TEN THIS OR THAT
► Love or Lust? ➔ Love.
► Lemonade or Iced tea? ➔ neither gross!
► Cats or Dogs? ➔ Both.
► A few best friends or many regular friends? ➔ Few best friends.
► Television or Internet? ➔ Internet.
► Pepsi or Coke? ➔ root beer ;D
► Pink or Purple? ➔ Purple
► Day or Night? ➔ Night.
► IM or Phone? ➔ phone, cause it can IM XDDD

TEN HAVE YOU EVERS
► Been caught sneaking out? ➔ nope
► Fallen down the stairs? ➔ Yes.
► Went water rafting? ➔ Yes
► Finished an entire jawbreaker? ➔ yes
► Wanted something/someone? ➔ Yes
► Skipped School? ➔ Yes.
► Wanted to disappear? ➔ nope

TEN PREFERENCES
► Smile or Eyes? ➔ eyes
► Light or Dark Hair? ➔ either
► Fat or Skinny? ➔ Between.
► Shorter or Taller? ➔ Between
► Intelligence or Attraction? ➔ intelligence
► Jock or Nerd? ➔ nerd
► Hook-up or Relationship? ➔ Relationship
► Funny and poor OR Rich and serious? ➔ Funny and poor
► Play the guitar or into sports? ➔ play the guitar

TEN LASTS
► Last Phone Call/Text? ➔ erin
► Last phone call you received? ➔ mom
► Last person you hung out with? ➔ brother
► Last person you hugged? ➔ I don't remember.
► Last person you IM'ed? ➔ Hannah
► Last thing you ate? ➔ pizza
► Last thing you drank? ➔ juice!
► Last site you went to? ➔ Deviantart
► Last place you were? ➔ home

RELATIONSHIPS
► Are you in a relationship? ➔ nope
► Do you want to be? ➔ Yes.
► Have you ever loved a guy/girl more than anything else in the world? ➔ Yes.
► Do you still love them? ➔ no
► Do you like someone right now? ➔ kinda
► Do you and your family get along ➔ Yes.
► Would you say you have a "fucked up life"? ➔ if only you knew lol
► Have you ever run away from home? ➔ yea
► If so, how long? ➔ dont remember
► Have you ever gotten kicked out? ➔ No.
► If so, how long? ➔ No.
► Do you secretly hate one of your friends? ➔ nope
► Do you consider all of your friends good friends? ➔ Some of them
► Do you trust all your friends? ➔ i trust very few people
► Who are/is your best friend(s)? ➔ a few that i dont want to mention
► Would you die for them? ➔ nope
► Who knows everything about you? ➔ no one
► Would you ever date online? ➔ done it and wont do it again